Tuesday, March 13, 2007

KILL ME NOW! The death of a FAT GIRL in SC ~250

Okay the 5 lbs I was shocked over ... GONE! YEA ! SUPER YEA!
Back to 250! I can't wait to see 240....
I only walked 1.5 miles for 35 min tonight. My back has been killing me. I have something pinched. I need to get that OUT!
But hey after a long day I headed to the gym after 6:30pm! YEA!!!!!!!!!
Its just such a struggle! I watch everyone around me RUNNING for more than 45 min with out stopping. RUNNING FAST AND HARD and I envy them so much. I struggle to walk 2 miles ( okay tonight 1.5 miles) and its KILLING ME! I wish I could go back in time to the moment I let me emotions slip and take over the FAT ME.. the one that KEPT getting BIGGER AND BIGGER! That one moment in time when I stopped being me and started being a person that wasn't worth it anymore. Why could I not see that back then?

UGHHHHH I SO MAD... I can't run at the gym. I can barely do 30 min of walking fast. MAKES ME FEEL WORSE!

I didn't go to my inlaws for dinner tonight. NOPE, I can't be social and it involve FOOD!

So for dinner Im having some good ole Rain BRAN!

MY BODY HURTS SO BAD.... this is over some Lame walking. GEEEEEZZZ

Im proud of myself on a side note. I haven't stuck with going to the gym since I was in bama long ago. YEA! GO MARYANNE GO MARYANNE...

1 comment:

Becki Stone said...

Girl I am so proud of you! I LOVE that you said you can't wait for 240- take it 10 lbs at a time..and you will be to your goal before you know it!! Huge hugs!!! Love ya!