I almost didn't make it the GYM tonight. Yep I thought of one excuse after another. But I MADE MYSELF GO! I knew if I didn't go tonight, I wouldn't go tomorrow or maybe this weekend. When I set out to lose weight, I told myself I would not sit back and let one day go by with out going to the gym every day. EVEN If it was to walk ONE MILE at a fast pace. That is what I did tonight. I didn't let myself down. I went and I walked 1 little tiny mile in 20 min. YEA FOR ME! Some how I still feel like a loser!
My friend in BAMA goes to the Gym and RUNS on the treat mill on a incline. She can go to a class and keep up for a hour. WHY can't I? UGHHHH It pisses me OFF!
I know she isn't nearly as BIG as I AM! She is less than 180! GOD wouldn't I love to see 180! She also has a great support group of new friends to push her and go with her. I go alone! EVERY TIME alone. I told her tonight... TO go and leave my family at home was a challenge harder than any exercise! I put them all before me and I feel selfish leaving them at HOME! But I have to do what I have to do..... RIGHT?
FOR ME!
My goal is to go 2.5 miles tomorrow. Even if I take a break between miles.
I will make it a point to start doing my tapes soon too....
Maybe I can save up enough to buy that HIP HOP ABS DVD I want so bad.
I need all the support I get ...even if its from a distance. I won't be alone in my journey.
THANK YOU!
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I know you don't know me but I read your blog and I want you to know you are an inspiration to me and I'm sure to many others. I envy your courage & respect it! I want you to know that no matter what people everywhere who do care. You continue on with what your doing no matter how hard it becomes just remember your babies & the Love of your life!! I'm very proud of what your doing & wish you all the luck. Oh and by the way your beauty out weighs everything else. (internal & external)
Girl you are not alone!!! I can relate to what you are saying, but you have to find a way to put yourself first. I am so proud of you for going yesterday- you are right if you not go one day you could fall into the trap of not going the next and so on. So how is your actual diet? What are you eating?
Much love!
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